Transitions

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I quit my job yesterday.

I am

resigned

to be happy. 

The decision to end something is never easy -

the choice to be let loose in the world is terrifying

yet exhilarating.

A horoscope is a horoscope, but this was mine this weekend. It was the exact reminder I needed and the perfect summary of my mental struggle:

You can’t know what – or who – will prove to be ‘important’ further down the road. Therefore, curtail your know-it-all tendencies, Aquarius, when it comes to determining which exchanges to devote your time and attention to. As long as you’re caught in your head, attributing value to a potential interaction in advance of seeing how the moment spontaneously flows (or doesn’t), you’re still operating in a world of abstracts… a place where it’s too easy to overlook the actual people right in front of your face, offering you something you probably couldn’t have foreseen, because you’re too busy orchestrating ‘best-case scenarios’ and ‘ideal situations.’ Please let random remarks divert your focus, scramble your priorities, throw a wrench in the works. Bless the sudden shift in scheduling. There’s nowhere else to hurry off to; you’re already where you need to be. Nonchalantly explore the cast of curious characters populating these environs. Speak the strange thoughts swirling around your lips, inviting the adjacent human to respond as she or he sees fit, and see where it goes. Flexibility and responsiveness are winning strategies; forcefully struggling to ‘stay on track,’ not so much.

That is my prayer this week. Amen to nonchalant exploration.